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2006-09-17 - Lower the curtain

My sincere apologies for the language and mood of my last entry. I'm generally medicated well enough not to become quite so rattled. However, lately I find I can't swallow enough pills to feel good about myself. I feel violated, betrayed, naked. Getting mad solves nothing and only confirms what I suspected about myself from the beginning, that I'm still just an angry child behind this facade of a grown woman.

I've let myself down greatly and now I just want to go inside and think.

 
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