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2006-10-25 - I'd forgotten how this feels

I've been listening to others talk and reading thoughts posted here as well about the use of antidepressant medication. What I think I'm hearing is that it's pretty much an acceptance of personal failure. Weakness, in other words. Implied also is that someone taking such a drug isn't her true self, and therefore not capable of real spirituality. Well, I agree with your many voices. But when it saved my life I decided to compromise, at least for a while. Sure, I've tried going off. And landed right back at rock bottom each time. But I too want to be whole, want to be real.

I'm nine days into withdrawal now and nothing has meaning. Hopefully authenticity will come soon.

 
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